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March 07, 2006
U spin me right round, baby
So much is happening so quickly in my life right now that it feels even more difficult to keep up with this journal—or rather, keep this journal up with my life. I wonder if the Universe canceled my coaching session today (my coach is sick) just to give me a break!
Highlights:
I spend all my time at the gay book store straightening things up.
The next Gay/Bi Men's Poly gathering is next weekend!
A wonderful woman, a ceremonial healer, rearranged my universe recently... I see that perhaps the biggest shift I need to make is toward complete trust, in myself and the Universe. In other words, self-confidence. I put up a good front; today a close, but fairly new, friend asked if I ever felt not confident. Do I? *laugh*
Part of my coaching intake was to name my highest values. What came was:
1. Divine trust
2. Transparency
3. Intentional self-work
4. Unconditional (self) Love
5. Impeccable word/unarguable truth
(Only later did I see how they correspond to the chakras.)
I feel like what I heard from the U, through Ms. Ceremony, was that it's time to really put more energy and intention into #1.
As well, I'm currently putting much energy into #2... transparency requires Others to be seen by, to be One-self with, and relationship is a huge piece of work for me right now. Most of that work is internal, but some looks like process with others.
Got a glimpse recently of just how big I am. Huge. Currently: I barely inhabit myself.
On the other hand, I have big, beautiful things going on with big, beautiful people. Some of it looks small and ugly sometimes. When I'm grounded, I remember otherwise.
I've been so grounded lately, more so than ever before in my life. And aligned. The two are synergistic, of course. The more grounded, the easier to check in with one's heart.
Putting some (need more) energy into getting my whole foods group off the ground, as well as teaching some intro to whole foods classes. I need to get spaces scheduled, advertising out, class outline fleshed out, handouts prepared, websites done. Where's my highly competent staff?
Basically, I'm busy, a little stressed, learning, living, loving, and happy. If I could choose one superpower, it would be the ability to squeeze 200 hours into each day. Until then, I'll be here doing my very human very best.
Posted by Josh A. at March 7, 2006 02:29 AM
Comments
It's amazing what you accomplish with 24 hours a day. You'd run the world with 200.
Posted by: obsessed at March 8, 2006 07:29 AM