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January 20, 2005
Sooo tired
Yay an easy day. Only one class.
Despite 8 hours of sleep last night and 10 hours the night before, I fell asleep in heart circle. Winter + sleep deficit + cough/cold = need lots of sleep, I guess.
Afterward, we traded 40 minute "integrative" sessions. We had to use at least two modalities. I used Polarity and Shiatsu, and my partner used Polarity and Swedish. It was nice... we both wanted Rajasic contacts... I feel dependent on them to maintain my fire.
And still, I still felt off all day.
My intentions, btw, were to let go of my belief that "I will lose", and to let go of the entire win/lose game/dichotomy/judgment system entirely. Possibly Core or Perineal sessions would be more appropriate.
Lunch was yummy... sole, buckwheat soba, stir fried veggies, and other stuff I'm forgetting. The soba had vegetables and some sort of nutty, cheesy white sauce (somehow it managed to be vegan).
I got really scared about money this afternoon. I didn't expect my new loan payment to be so high. I did a cash flow chart through May, and find that I should be able to get by as long as I finish a particular web site I'm working on and Des gives me the Christmas cash he offered. But that's still slim. So I'm looking at some other ways to augment my income, particularly with old design clients. Now it's just a matter of putting in the hours. Gosh, I make that sound so easy and... surmountable.
I was also worried about being able to survive after graduation, but having done the numbers with the most current info, they still look pretty decent. Basic massage therapy at a spa or salon should be enough to survive on at an ok standard of living (keeping in mind that "ok" in this case is more expensive than, say, eating McDonald's and living in not-one-of-the-most-expensive-cities-in-the-nation). Of course, I'm more likely to downgrade my apartment than my diet.
I didn't end up going to Movement Magic or Tarot. I just needed to chill on my own. Oh well, next time.
Ye godz, runny nose tonight. Let's hope I get to sleep quickly.
Posted by Josh A. at January 20, 2005 09:14 PM