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November 02, 2004
Surprise!
"It's funny," I just found myself thinking. Each moment conditions the next, which means that in some sense the present conditions the "future", but--and here's what's funny--so unpredictably.
Almost nothing about last night pointed to a good day today. I stayed up too late, which means not enough sleep. I didn't stay up doing anything terribly "useful"... like, say, studying for the anatomy test. And I felt so disconnected, in a place of just "not caring".
And so when I got into bed, I did my perineal rocking, went through my nightly reiki list, did some acupressure, set some intentions, and hoped for "The Best".
It came.
This morning I managed to get out of bed in time for breakfast. Not enough time to take a shower but! today's Shiatsu class was dedicated to evaluations, and mine wasn't until 11:45. So after breakfast I got to take my shower, go over my shiatsu notes, do some studying for anatomy, and still do what I needed to do for class.
My eval went great. I was perfect on timing, fit what I needed to fit in to the allotted time, remembered most of the pre-session interview components, and remained nicely present the whole time. I received warm comments at the end, and will hear more detailed feedback tomorrow in class.
Science test was fine. Ohhh my gosh I stressed too much... not much, but it was still too much. I missed like two. Sure that comes out to like 6%, but it still puts me in the A range.
Ok, you see that last paragraph right there? Totally old patterns being replayed. I crammed at the last second; I won't even be able to pass that same test a month from now. I endured a stress response for no real return, and ended up depending on a grade for solace.
Here's another test, a pop quiz: Which will matter more to my future clients: that I correctly answered "rectus femoris" for #4 during some test in massage school, or that I know how to find and treat it on their body?
After dinner, Martha taught me some chinese calligraphy. I've never done it before, but have wanted to for some time.
These were some of the first, mostly Wood and Earth:
There was my attempt at "Good Fortune":
And then there was this... it's not too bad, but definitely not what it's "supposed to be"... but you and I have a hard time knowing that.
Anyway, doing the calligraphy took a lot of energy at first, and requires mindfulness. I can see how it could be a serious practice, just like yoga or tai chi. I tried to make the strokes from my hara rather than my arm, with mixed success. An interesting exercise, nonetheless. I'm looking forward to doing more tomorrow night.
And that's that... hopefully getting into bed soon!
Posted by Josh A. at November 2, 2004 10:43 PM
Comments
Good work on the calligraphy. Whats the bottom one supposed to be? Congrats also on your finals. Wish I would have known you did well.
Hugs
Posted by: Des at November 3, 2004 08:48 PM