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November 03, 2004
Second to last day of my First Quarter
Today was another fairly enjoyable day.
I received amazing feedback this morning in Shiatsu. Heartfelt feedback that touched me; I started to cry. Oh, and the word "rockstar" was used :-)
The constructive criticism revolved not around my bodywork but around my attitude toward myself, confidence, and self-love. I appreciate that she cares about me; at the same time I'm supporting myself in not immediately feeling like I'm not "doing enough" or moving "fast enough" in my process.
We also did a little intro to reflexology and got to play with some hot stones. Ahh, end of quarter miscellany.
Tomorrow is our final heart circle in Shiatsu! Of course, not long from now we'll come back together and circle up again for Swedish, Day One!
Speaking of heart circles, had an amazing final circle in Conscious Communication Skills. I expressed some appreciations: for each of my classmates, their presence and commitment, their sharing, their struggles, their victories; for Amy allowing us to claim some space to do the things we needed to do in the class that weren't necessarily on the syllabus; and for the safety our group has created.
We've received comments multiple times from multiple sources that not many classes in the past have created the safety and caring that our class has. I've never experienced anything like it before, and I have no idea how I'm going to even approximate it elsewhere come May, but in the meantime I'm planning to enjoy every single benefit from it I can.
Anyway, I remember back to Day One of CCS... and what I shared that day was a nakedly honest summation of my struggles with emotions, emotional situations, and speaking from my heart.
Fast forward, 10 weeks of CCS later... in the past, assuming I even got words out at all, I would have left feeling dissatisfied... "How could I have forgotten to say _____?" and frustration with my words not truly expressing the feelings I wanted to convey.
Tonight, however, I said everything I needed to say, powerfully, connectedly. If there could ever be a "Final" for CCS, tonight was it, and it can only be graded by the individual. Tonight I aced it.
I'm not happy about Proposition 66 being defeated.
I'm livid about 11 states banning gay marriage. Anyone who is delusional enough to believe that "America is a place where we don't have to worry about getting killed for our beliefs" needs to check into the myriad cases of transexual murder victims.
And if you don't think gay marriage bans and the killing of transfolk have anything to do with each other, you're in the wrong room... the remedial class is down the hall.
I got to do more calligraphy tonight, and Melissa joined us. It was really nice.
I hope I can find my old brushes and ink in Sac. I'll probably head to Chinatown in SF at some point anyway.
Oh, and now I finally have an excuse to own one of those zen boards one "paints" on with water. I'm pretty sure Under One Roof sells them, and it's for a good cause ;-)
I went to the Wellness Clinic today and picked up some supplies... Six Flavor Tea Pills, Chlorella, and ginger tea. To build yin, gently cleanse and build, and keep me warm, respectively. Suddenly I wonder if I shouldn't use Eight Flavor pills, but one thing at a time, right?
So the Six Flavor pills are a general yin tonic... most people in America are yin deficient. So we'll see how I like it. I suspect I may have a constitutional Kidney deficiency, but I'm not sure. Even though these pills are specifically a Kiney tonic, the'll help.
The chlorella is very building/tonifying in general (nice), as well as cleansing. After being raised on a diet of processed foods, I certainly need it. Should increase my energy, and would balance my blood sugar if I needed it. It's also good support to have while visiting the city.
The ginger tea helps keep the center warm without burning the yin off. Can't build yin if I'm just burning it up. So I'm cutting out the hot spices I've been experimenting with, cutting back on cinnamon, and sticking mainly with turmeric and the ginger tea.
Anyway, supplements in hand, I'm so ready for break. Just gotta pack up, get through tomorrow, and then I'm off.
Ha. I make it sound so simple. It could take me all of break to pack, and then it'd be Sunday and I'd have to unpack it all again.
Posted by Josh A. at November 3, 2004 11:17 PM
Comments
Enjoy SF!
Posted by: Ari Moore at November 5, 2004 04:02 AM