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September 15, 2004
Still kinda off
Amazingly I rose at 5:30 without using snooze. I mainly didn't want to disturb my new roommate, Jamison.
Made up my missed Tai Chi class... it was really nice doing it in the morning. Paul spoke at length on one of his favorite subjects, drugs. Mostly about how they haven't really had any students here who used intoxicants and did well... specifically, that improved; rather, they tended to stay where they were at and not advance, even though they often thought they were growing. But I wonder, if there was a student who "used" "intoxicants", but kept it to themselves, and did improve... how Paul or anybody else would know. Maybe it's one of the secret Tai Chi Jedi tricks that one doesn't learn in first quarter tai chi.
He did talk about how pharmaceuticals toxify our livers and are therefore considered intoxicants, and that was interesting. But then he also talked about bars and how he gets "bored to tears" in them, which is something I can relate to sometimes, but some of his words sounded like he was saying bars aren't "spiritual", and I guess that depends on how broad your vision or definition is. No, I know the source of my discomfort: I think I was hearing (or projecting) Paul cross the line into judging, and not knowing how to relate to that as his student.
Shiatsu went well, despite having missed SEVEN hours of it. Making that up is going to require at least an hour of tutoring, or in bottom line terms, $25. Damn this car shit is expensive. I feel like there's some kind of lesson in abundance in it all, but I'm not quite sure what it is. It'd be clearer if I had a pattern, like everytime I got extra money in the bank my car broke down and the repairs "somehow" alway worked out to be exactly the extra. But this is just nuts.
The only thing I've been able to relate it to is having
looked at the intensives going on during break and deciding, "Well, I don't have $600 for that..." and now somehow I'm coming up with even more than that just for repairs and the aftermath of being stranded.
Conscious Communication was cancelled. I felt so irritated upon hearing that. I wait all week for CCS.
At least it's pizza night. In only five minutes... :-)
Posted by Josh A. at September 15, 2004 05:32 PM