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September 07, 2004
messy beautiful blessed
messy. beautiful. blessed.
Yes.
I felt it at all levels after Shiatsu. I am messy, beautiful, and blessed. Place. Process. People. The world is messy, beautiful, and blessed. The Universe adores us.
After spending only a preliminary amount of time processing and letting go of old patterns of learning, test taking, schooling... there was enough space for older issues to come to the surface.
I am at my edge of discomfort here. This is how I know I am in the right place at the right time.
In high school I started working on my body image. I did a lot to become comfortable with the way bodies look, both my own and other people's.
I never did any work on being comfortable with the way my body moves.
Sitting form was fine, but beginning the supine form today brought up issues of body mechanics, self-care and comfort, and self-consciousness. Old, old feelings rose up. I had to go to the bathroom, cry, regain composure with TAT. After class I spoke with the teacher and the TA to let them know where I was at, and that if I seem weird, this is why.
Posted by Josh A. at September 7, 2004 01:31 PM